Million Star Hotel - The Constantines

Sick at heart / oh city doctor / city doctor on the twenty-first floor / I can see that city doctor / can't help me anymore / When the dust settles / I won't be kissing / that diamond ring anymore / He'll be looking out the window / I'll be walking out the door / That man built the city to put up a fight / When woman made the mold too well / I'd just like to see you in a natural light / Black water and a million star hotel / I need to see the country doctor / Able body's easily confused / We need to lie together / in the dirt and changing weather / Teach the animals a thing or two / I'd just like to get out of the city tonight / Fall back where we first fell / I'd just like to see you in a natural light / Fallen daughter in a million star hotel / Living on a little too much information / Where's my black water / Where's my loving cup / No more wrath of no physician / City my city / my time is up / I can't see / what I've been given / for all sights on what I want / Medicine my path is missing / For the roads I'm walking on / I'd just like to see you in a natural light / Black water and a million star hotel



Similarities in music make me sick to my stomach.

Heavy heart

with open hands;

where shadows mock

a coward stands.

I am a mess.

Drunk. No sleep for me.

I feel like I'm talking to myself on here.

The unfortunate part is I could do it for hours.

...

Please, kindly remove your shoes prior to entry. We like to keep our carpets clean and stain free.

Apparently doormats are really people?

Or maybe it's that doormats are people too, but nobody ever notices because they're too busy wiping their bullshit and hypocrisy off on the way in.

Who knew?

Thanks, 6 years of service for some salt and mud wiped on my face.






I am tired.

So is my continuous habit of being nice to people.


But answer me this:

When and who was the last person you met, that was of entirely and unblemished honest nature? Never faultered for truth or bothered with coatings of sugar? Never went against loyalty or honor? Were there day in and day out, for years, and years later they would summon to the call of an inseperable bond? They remained the foundation upon which great things could be built?

Think about it, and then question the generation of society in which we continue to grow.

I would much rather shake hands with a meat grinder; at least you know where the acknowledgement will end up.

To the people who bother to stay in touch and give me/let me give you an undying ear, some love and a few smiles, thank you. To those who I've let down by failing to maintain contact on some level, I apologize. The upsetting part is how often I think about failing to maintain that contact, yet never go beyond that notion.

Stow away the bottle in your own stomache, or pass it around until it's empty.

Mutual efforts are often neglected, the weight should never rest heavier on either one side. We are all a part of life, a cesspool of flesh and blood and talent, of emotion, unique as one and as a whole. I don't understand why that's so hard to respect, both for myself and in regard to the rest of you.

Think of it this way, if you hold dear your friendships as much as I, whether lost or kept ...

There is no you alone. You may single yourself out in order to focus on the progression of your life, but were it not for the people you live and grow with, eat with, drink with, fuck and fight with; read about; study; look up to; learn from and teach to, you would not be who you are today.