Void.
This will be my last blog entry for a very long time. Most likely, I will be starting a new blog somewhere else. But for now. This is it.
[Edit: I have removed the entire 5 pages until I decide it appropriate to post, so I will leave you with this.]
I'm sorry, for anything.
I'm sorry for this.
But I'm not sorry for who I am, what I gave to you, and what I did for you.
I saw you in a light like no other could ever imagine.
I love you.
I will always love you, you beautiful, fantastic girl.
[Edit: I have removed the entire 5 pages until I decide it appropriate to post, so I will leave you with this.]
I'm sorry, for anything.
I'm sorry for this.
But I'm not sorry for who I am, what I gave to you, and what I did for you.
I saw you in a light like no other could ever imagine.
I love you.
I will always love you, you beautiful, fantastic girl.
posted by dial out : at 4:03 AM
3 Comments:
dont be sorry, for youve done nothing but be an incredible human being. take this time to find yourself, be somebody, make a name for yourself. show everyone who's ever doubted you or hurt you that you are so much better, that you can be so much better then who you already are.
Why is it required that I do that alone?
I had everything I needed. My mental thought process is something to be discussed with a councilor and is a reason why my motivation to do anything is void. I was in motion with that. I had everything I needed and could do anything else I wanted.
I was somebody, and I was proud to show people whom and what my love was meant for. Nothing else mattered.
I don't want this. I don't wake to wake up to anyone else, especially alone in a bed I don't even recognize as my own anymore.
I don't want to look at anyone else the way I look/looked at her/you. I can't fathom it. The thought repulses me. I can't imagine another looking in the same ways that I did.
It isn't fair and all it required was a little effort, and to not let the influences of others so easily and potentially cloud judgment and force a loss in sight of the ultimate goal that we shared.
We talked the future. I don't want to think of a future without her/you. That's one thing that I was absolutely sure about.
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